We have already passed week 32 of pregnancy! In our 32nd week we celebrated Mother's Day, the one-year anniversary to the day that we found out we were no longer having twins. Baby T gave mommy her kicks and play. It was the best gift she can give me until her birth. Tuesday was the one-year anniversary of my D&C. And I can't even stomach to look back at a memory of that day. I only tell myself that God was watching over our family when he took them from us. Baby T needed all the love and attention of Mom and Dad. She needed to be our oldest daughter and she will do great things in this world. She has already made such an impact on Mommy and Daddy. I have never been so happy in my life. Daddy is scared, but I know he cannot wait.
Baby T is practicing sucking, breathing, swallowing and kicking. Yes, I feel her moving about. She has been very traceable this week. I can feel her run across my belly.
Her skin is looking like it will look at birth now! It is crazy how close to birth size she already is. Her hands and feet are so close to the size they predict they will be at birth.
Baby T has been in the head down position for at least 6 weeks now, but she is facing my left side with one of her little feet right in front of her face.
Braxton-Hicks - Those have slowed down, because I am keeping more regular with bowel movements and my body hurts more quickly with too much exercise than it used to. Our Nonstress tests have shown that I have some building pressure on my belly. I had a few Braxton-Hicks contractions.
Constipation - Now that my body is more used to my regular cheese intake, I am not so constipated. It was just a short period getting used to the slowing effect of cheese. I would like to have slightly softer stools, but I am keeping things moving, and that is all I can ask. I still eat at least a few slices of cheese a day and eat a bit of cottage cheese pretty regularly too, as it helps with the protein and I am always hungry.
Faintness or Dizziness - I have found no faintness or dizziness lately.
Itchy Tummy and skin - My back is actually much more itchy than my belly and I think that is because I apply belly butter every day but I cannot reach my back to put lotion on that. I had my husband apply lotion once but most of the time I just ignore the itchiness and do okay with it. My stretch marks are crazy, but I read that is a good sign to show Baby is growing well.
Snack Away - I have been practicing eating every 3 hours for this entire pregnancy. I have gotten better since tracking my blood sugar. As I log all of my meals and then can look back at my log to see when I last ate and can eat a bit more roughly 3 hours later. A Frequent snack is cottage cheese.
Drink Water - I drink water constantly, I am always thirsty. And I make sure I drink extra while reading or watching TV.
Do Pelvic Tilts - I do pelvic tilts and squats every day with my yoga routine, getting ready to push this baby out in less than 40 days. It is crazy how fast this is coming! Realistically, it could be any day now. I am struggling to keep up with the yoga and stretches, but I work really hard to. I have got to be in good shape to deliver Baby T.
Our first Fetal Nonstress Test, baby, was doing really well. They told me they were happy with the results and didn't really explain too much.
Wednesday we had our cardiologist appointment. And everything went great there as well, my Dr. said that my heart was still pumping adequately and I would only have to have my heart monitored while I am pushing Baby T out, she still approves a vaginal medicated birth.
My blood pressure was a little high there again.
I am so sleepy and it's exhausting to carry this much extra weight around all day. I feel like a whale and I haven't really gained that much weight during this pregnancy.
I allowed myself double caffeine for the first time. I am just really dragging myself through the days. I drank both a coffee and a small diet coke.
I don't think this hurt Baby T at all.
But, then Tuesday evening I started getting anxious. I was reading about NST's and they do them when your baby is at high risk of fetal death. I am sure this is the safest thing we can do, but it is a hard thing to read. No one wants to be reminded that they are still at risk of losing their baby.
I just want my baby girl perfectly healthy and in my arms. I am having a hard time these last few weeks.
Friday was my second NST and Baby T got all worked up and made all the alarms go off. She moved around like crazy and got her heart rate up to 200. They told me if this persisted I would have been sent to Triage.
My body has made itself the ideal place for Baby T, my heart has managed all the extra blood well and I think the extra weight has not hurt my body.
There are lots of things harder about this time in pregnancy and as I am about to give birth.
My husband and I are likely going to struggle as we enter parenthood, and I fear this. We get along really well, but I don't think that he is prepared to be a father and I am not prepared to be a mother AND a wife/mother to my adult husband.
I am dreaming crazy things and I think this comes from the divide between my husband and I.
I am turning to my Mother-in-law for help with Baby set up as my husband is so involved in gardening and outdoor activities right now, which is fantastic, because I don't feel like I can help much with outdoors during this time. But I had hoped he would share the parenting anxiety I have right now.
I am reading The Baby Book by Dr. Sears. I think this is adding the anxiety up with spousal duties and mothering duties. I want to be a supermom and a super wife, and I hear that this is something that hits a lot of women when during the first month postpartum, we cannot do it all anymore. Some things have to wait so you can be everything your newborn needs.
I started practicing thrice weekly perianal massage on Friday too.
I am also feeling like my breasts are so full and large.
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