35 Weeks Pregnant!

We have made it 35 weeks! Baby T can be born at anytime! Though she is not full term, I have always been told once I get to 35 weeks we don't have concerns about her coming with complications because of gestational age. Come on, Baby T. Mommy is so ready for you! The house is ready. Your clothes, diapers, soaps, diaper creams, blankets, bedside sleepers and changing table are just waiting to be used by you, my beautiful baby girl.

Baby T has been head down for over 7 weeks and we will see her Friday. I cannot wait to see our baby girl for the last time before she is outside my womb.

Baby T should weigh over 5.5 lbs. I can't wait!

Baby T's skull is still soft to push through the birth canal, given that we can have her naturally.

I am suffering from some very serious anxiety.

Frequent Urination - Oh yeah, I can absolutely always urinate. And I feel like I am going to just start peeing as soon as I get my pants down.

Doula - I have never had an interest in hiring a doula, however, I have considered enrolling in an education program to become a doula after I have Baby T. Being a high-risk pregnancy; I have very few birth wishes, just that she is healthy when she arrives.

Headaches - I have nearly daily headaches. I was instructed by my OB to take Tylenol every time I have a headache to make sure it goes away with Tylenol. I woke up with a headache this morning and not high blood pressure for the first time in a week, so I did not take Tylenol. I ran to the nearest gas station and got a half caffeinated diet coke.

Hemorrhoids - I have a rather large hemorrhoid again.

Increasing Clumsiness - I do not balance while exercising under any circumstances. All of my prenatal yoga routines have recommended working on balance, but I will not hurt myself trying. So, I just stay next to the couch and keep a footstool near so I can hold on while doing the balancing exercises. Outside of working out, I do not have issues with clumsiness.

Braxton-Hicks - Sadly, but also thankfully, I have less Braxton-Hicks than I was having. I thought they were supposed to get more frequent the closer you get to giving birth. But I don't think I have had a contraction in the last 3 days.

Birth Plan - At my appointment last week I was presented a few pages I could fill out my birth wishes on. I did this and will bring it with me to my next appointment.

I installed the mirrors in my car with the car seat last week. And once we know when and how Baby T will enter this world, we will have to move the car seat back to my husband's car. For now, it is in my car.

Heartburn - Because of my Omeprazole I have not had issues with heartburn in the last few weeks. I burp like crazy and burp up food frequently. At this point in pregnancy I frequently feel like vomiting. Then just as soon as I felt like I would throw up, I am starving to stuff my face with anything. Consistent with 35 weeks pregnant my blood sugar has gotten much harder to manage. I still have great fasting numbers but it's looking like I have to completely cut carbs to keep from soaring blood sugar.

Exercise - I am keeping up with yoga and walking. I hear long walks are great at inducing labor.

I had a nightmare that Baby T was born a boy, and I knew something was terribly wrong because we had every test telling us she is a girl. And I thought if this can happen I don't know what else will. And as I was changing his first diaper after coming home from the hospital he turned into a cat and ran away. And I just cried and cried because I didn't have a baby anymore. I am just so eager to have Baby T out now. I know it is still best if she bakes a little longer, but I hate this feeling. The fear of losing what is just out of my reach still. I know this anxiety won't go away when she enters my world, but I can look at her or take her to the pediatrician during concerns. Right now I already feel like a crazy person.

I am telling you, my anxiety is through the roof. I don't know how I am supposed to relax myself. I will continue to freak out constantly until she is out. I have blurry vision and stars. Still have the high blood pressure and headache. I always feel like I am going to throw up. I have nightmares only.

I worry about preeclampsia still.

The high blood sugar readings I have had have scared me. I had a 159 a few days ago. 149 yesterday after eating pizza and watermelon. And 197 after eating nuts, dried fruit, and chocolate chips.

After each of these events I went for a long walk and ate a handful of nuts or 2 beef sticks and got my blood sugar back within range.

When Baby T moves around sometimes it feels like I am getting stabbed, my OB told me this is round ligament pain.

Tuesday was another NST. Baby T was perfect, as usual on the test, and they were thrilled with the results. But I complained of all the issues I have and they ordered blood and urine tests for preeclampsia. I got the results and I don't think it points to preeclampsia yet. My creatinine in my urine was low.

I have been dealing with things pretty well today.

No contractions during the NST.

I have now gained 19 pounds.

I wonder how much longer we will wait for Baby T to make her appearance.

I hope soon, but only if that means she is very healthy. I should have more patience than I do. I always thought I would be the type of mama to be patient and know that baby should stay in as long as she can. But the anxiety about something bad happening at the end of pregnancy is debilitating. I worry that I have too high of blood pressure or that my blood sugar will continue to go out of control.