Yesterday I had some light cramping and light spotting when I was out grocery shopping. I was instantly disappointed; I thought my period was starting early again. And that I would have to wait until it came so I could call the Doctor and let her know that I am concerned about low progesterone.
But this morning I still hadn't started my period, so I jumped the gun and tried taking a pregnancy test when I got up.
My test was very very very faint positive!!!
I brought it down to my husband, and he said, "A baby?!?"
I said, "Maybe"
And showed him the light positive pregnancy test.
Then I ran over to Target to get a super early detection test to see if that came back positive, maybe darker. Sure enough, it was light, but it was a positive! I am thrilled! There is not a word to describe my happiness.
My husband wants to wait until 12 weeks to tell people, but that is very hard so I am setting these to release at a later date, after those twelve weeks, and we have announced our pregnancy to our families. Or if we are unfortunate and have to experience another miscarriage, when that happens I will release the weeks that happen before.
It is INCREDIBLY early, I didn't even think I would ever know about a pregnancy this early.
We are 4 weeks and 2 days.
I am starting my pregnancy journal to the baby.
I am still having some spotting, but maybe that is just common for me. I just had a bit of blood in my cervical mucus when I went to the bathroom after I came home from getting lab work done.
I had my HCG and progesterone tested to make sure the progesterone is high enough to support a pregnancy, I should get the results in the next 12 to 48 hours.
I did not have my progesterone tested before but my HCG was tested and that came back too low after 48 hours, so I am looking forward to getting the 48 hour test and results, if that comes back higher than I will feel much more positive about the pregnancy.
But I am scared that this could be a chemical pregnancy, and that is why I am spotting, because my cervical mucus hasn't gotten more runny yet.
I spotted every couple days with the twins, which was concerning, but also common with twins. The Nurse I called to let them know I got my positive tests asked if I was having cramping or anything but said that the light spotting is common during implantation.
And honestly, I probably only implanted yesterday. I am only 10 days past ovulation.
It is very, very, very, very early.
Right now it feels so surreal still, I am in shock.
We want to do everything we can to protect our little rainbow baby.
I am not going to a funeral I was supposed to tomorrow because I don't want to risk anything. I have to keep my baby safe so next summer I will hold them. My husband feels that he would not survive a second miscarriage.
I don't think I would either, I almost lost it after our last miscarriage.
It feels wonderful to be having a precious baby growing inside me again, though I am yet to have any symptoms of pregnancy. I am dizzy and nauseous; I have been burping much more.
But my breasts aren't sore.
I am not having any cramps yet. Which I think is good, and I don't know if we don't have a miscarriage this time if I will get cramping. I had a lot of early cramping with the twins.
But assuming this is a single pregnancy, and my second pregnancy now, maybe my uterus won't have to stretch. We still have 6 weeks before I will probably get my first ultrasound unless they want to do one earlier.
That is a very long time to wait to find out more about my little rainbow baby.
But at that we should get to see them and get the bloodwork to find out if they are a boy or a girl.
I do not understand what I feel they are yet; I didn't really decide my twins were boys until they had left me. So I think it will be a long time until I feel the sex of this baby too.
I am trying to relax so I don't spot too much more.
After I finish writing this I am going to get drinks from the garage for myself and my husband, then I am going to finish cleaning up from lunch and lay down and watch Unsolved Mysteries.
For dinner tonight we are having sardine melts, which is like tuna melts, but we have been replacing the tuna with sardines because those are healthier during pregnancy.
We will have broccoli and cheese soup with the sardine melts.
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