Gestational Diabetes

Wednesday when I had my 28 week appointment with my OB, I had my 1 hour glucose test scheduled.

I had not enjoyed the drink this time, unlike the first trimester test. I sat in the waiting room holding my stomach, hoping and praying I would not throw up.

Got the blood draw and thought nothing of it.

I had my first urine test for protein and sugar in my urine; I thought the sugar looked abnormal, but my nurse threw away the test without comment. So I figured it must be normal. As I was waiting for the Dr I commented I did not enjoy the drink and she kept offering me food or drink to help. I took a bottle of water and started feeling better.

I came home happy and told my friends and family I expected all tests to come back normal.

But I woke up Thursday morning to find that my blood sugar was 51 mg too high.

And I thought, "oh no! I have been so uncomfortable and sick because I have gestational diabetes." I immediately put it all together, the dizziness, vomiting, headaches and stomachaches that others were just saying was normal.

I knew something was off.

But I also knew one test was not confirmation of gestational diabetes.

I called my OB to see if I could hurry and get the three-hour test done. I told my husband even if I pass this test; we are changing my diet because I keep telling you I am sick, I just know it. I started collecting information on what I should be eating.

I ate as though I had the diagnosis already all day Thursday and Friday while waiting for my test and results.

I got a phone call Friday afternoon that I failed and I wasn't surprised at all, only scared about what this meant and I was given no information at all. The nurse who called said Monday the High Risk Clinic will call you about the referral. I asked what I should do in the meantime; she said eat more protein.

Monday morning came and no call from my MFM Dr.

I finally got through to them around 2 pm and they said, "want to just add the nutrition appointment on to your 32 week ultrasound?" Without thinking I said yeah, then she said, "oh never mind you have it noted that you want first available, how about next Thursday?"

Then I put it together.

This crazy person really just suggested I have no Effing clue what the heck gestational diabetes is for 3 more weeks when I have basically 9 weeks or fewer until this baby is out of me? What the heck is wrong with this scenario? Um I could literally not know what the hell this diagnosis meant, scared and crying with ABSOLUTELY NO support from a medical professional.

And I was crying and confused. Depressed and scared. Had I just ruined my baby girl's best chances at a healthy life? I was livid after hanging up this phone call. Why the hell go over it at all? Just let me give birth and deal with my blood sugars that I want. Who cares if me and Baby T die in the meantime. Not my doctors, who have been by my side for over 2 years now.

I have since done all my research, thanks but no thanks MFM I don't need your stupid nutrition meeting.

I have changed my diet and kept my blood sugars between 65 and 104 at all times. I bought my blood sugar monitor and all the supplies I needed. I might as well be living on the Effing prairie birthing my child at home.

And this is not the first time I have felt wildly let down by my medical team.

What I hate most is all the comments "trust your doctor, you have the best medical team in the area" Yeah I do, but it might be nice if they actually cared about me. They write in my chart every time just willy-nilly answers to questions they didn't ask me. Like at my last appointment, no concerns, no vomiting or headaches. Um, I most definitely had concerns, was vomiting and had almost constant headaches. Sure would be nice if I knew you wanted to hear that.

Well, now that I am over my anger, I have a very mild case and don't think my Doctors even want me to watch my blood sugars.

I am watching them and dropped all sugars and most carbs. I will waste all my money on test strips since they won't give me a prescription, I am guessing.

But I have felt better than I have my whole pregnancy by eating every few hours and sticking to this extremely rigid diet. I will watch to make sure my numbers don't rise as my pregnancy continues and whenever Baby T get's here, that will be it. I know it won't be long.

69 days at the most and I think it will probably be before then. Only 2 weeks and we will know how her growth is coming along. I suspected she is outgrowing her room, but I don't know, she just doesn't move anymore. I think that is more that she doesn't have the sugar I was giving her regularly before.

I hope I am not hurting her.