Today is cycle day 18, and my LH was 0.75 on cycle day 15, and then back down to 0.21 on cycle day 16 and back up to 0.36 on cycle day 17. I then felt like I was poked in my right side, right just inside my hip bone. It felt like I had run into a counter or table when I was cleaning up from lunch on cycle day 16. It caught my breath because it was a surprise and felt so REAL. I am 95% sure that was the egg bursting from the follicle I have never felt before. So I believe I ovulated and felt ovulation for the first time.
We have been keeping busy in the bedroom trying to hit this window. I don't think we could be at fault for not trying enough this month.
I had my physical two days ago and got my flu shot. My doctor thought I may not need my blood pressure medication anymore so I have an appointment next week to make sure that my blood pressure is still low and to see if my home cuff is not accurate because it registers me being high and every doctors appointment I am below the 120/80. I think one less medicine would be good for me. I have tried to go without my blood pressure medicine before, but because of stress and anxiety I went back on it. So I think now, with the stress of conceiving being the only stress I am experiencing I think I am in a better place.
She suggested going 3 weeks eating no lactose to see if that may cause my bloating and burping. I have only been going a few days, so I will try to make it 3 weeks and see how that goes.
If not lactose she suggested trying 3 weeks without sugar.
If not lactose or sugar she suggested following the FODMAP diet.
I'm terrible at not eating lactose. Today I am craving pizza and planning to make pizza and salad for lunch.
I have been staying away from sugar a little easier because I rarely make anything with sugar for meals, so it's just staying away from sweet treats. Immediately after ovulation, I felt a change in my cravings. Or I should say that I now have cravings that I had been free from for 2 weeks. But I am making all of my food choices wisely again, for me and our future baby.
I am trying to stay calm and relaxed during this time.
I can't wait to have a successful pregnancy and be done with this time in our life.
Unlike after our wedding when I missed wedding planning, I will not look back and wish that I could do this time over, differently. Or have any sense of nostalgia for the time that my husband and I have been trying for a pregnancy.
I don't think we will ever "try" for another pregnancy after our first successful one. I would love to have as many kids as we can, but I hate this time. I don't want time intercourse and test ovulation ever again. It just helps me feel that a pregnancy is even more elusive than it is. Falling pregnant is the most miraculous things we can do as human beings and thinking about what your body has to do and the statistics it has to overcome is overwhelming and feels impossible.
I am going over to my best friend's house Saturday and seeing her baby boys!
My gastroenterologist called in a 3 month order of omeprazole for my burping and bloating.
Thankfully, I think my facial flushing is over until the next time I ovulate. Here is a picture I took yesterday, shortly before I believe I ovulated.
My mom called, and we talked about the reasons God took my twins so early, and I still believe that He was saving our family from future pain. My twins weren't meant for this world and they are in heaven, safe. I can think of a multitude of reasons they were taken ranging from their chromosomal abnormality that, at best, would give them an unfulfilled life and at worst would cause them to die before we ever got to bring them home. Me having too many health issues during a twin pregnancy that maybe my health would be altered forever. Or the ever-present Coronavirus getting to the babies, me or my husband. It hasn't waned at all, and I probably would go into labor now if my twins were perfect. The world is still a scary place to come into and I wouldn't be able to protect them as well once they are outside of my womb. So much is left to God and our crazy world.
Now I will make the changes to my diet and chemicals in our home further to make sure I am creating the safest place for my baby to implant.
What do you guys think about lactose? Do you think that is the cause of my burping and boating? It could be hormonal.
It is HALLOWEEN SEASON!
I haven't talked about that since October started. My husband watched one scary movie with me, that I loved! House of the Witch, it was the perfect amount of scary, a great storyline, enough confusing.
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